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Communication

Effective communication often eludes me. I’m the type of person that is either reaching for words that are just barely beyond my grasp or the words just come tumbling out of me uncensored. Neither of these strategies are particularly effective. The first type of attempt quickly turns futile as my struggle for the words only compounds my inability to find them. In the second scenario I often end up delivering a message that is a far cry from that which was originally intended.

However, neither of these are the type of scenario that has inspired my reappearance on WordPress. Instead my current conundrum is not related to the method in which I transfer my thoughts, but instead to my compulsion to say things that probably are best left unsaid. I am fascinated with how people think and why they do what they do. I want to understand as much as I can about anyone, but I have found that there are some things that people just don’t want others to know–or just aren’t interested in talking about. This can be difficult for me to accept because I am often interested in the minutiae of people’s’ lives as it gives me a better understanding of why they are who they are. This is especially the case when the people in question are those that I care about or am worried about and when things go wrong between someone who I care about and myself. I want to know why, even if I don’t believe that the problem in question should necessarily be fixed, I still feel the need to examine it within an inch of its life until I am able to understand it. If that is even possible.

This is just one of the many scenarios in which I think that I simply need to learn to let go. Although I become naturally fixated on figuring these things out, it is quite likely that others involved may feel a similarly strong need not to. And honestly? What good can it do to dig these problems up?

What do you think?

More about food

So, food has been on my mind lately and while I haven’t been shopping for things that aren’t necessities recently (for obvious reasons) as I look through all of these recipes I do begin to want some appliances that I don’t have.

Can you believe this is simply made out of bananas? I can't...

For example, I ran across this “recipe” today. Basically, if you blend a frozen banana you get the consistency of ice cream. No need for milk, no need for sugar, no need for anything else.

Oh, yeah. Except a blender.

I’m really wishing I’d bought one last fall when I saw it at Aldi’s. I really shouldn’t buy one right now. Still, I went over to the Aldi’s website to check out what the specials were for this week and I found this: a $24 Panini Maker/Grill. Now, a couple months ago, this would be entirely superfluous as I was making panini sandwiches with my mini-George Foreman Grill, but like my rice steamer, my George Foreman Grill no longer works (of course, the rice steamer never worked, but that’s neither here, nor there).

So, this is me convincing myself not to buy this because, honestly, I don’t need it.

Sorry about the materialistic digression. Hope you enjoy the banana ice cream recipe! Next time I’m near any of you and a blender, we should totally make some :)

Today started early–especially for me. A2 decided to wake up at 7am (6am central :-P ) to get ready and E decided to get up early as well. Technically that meant that I could sleep in for about an hour or so, but I’ve come to realize that I simply cannot sleep when people are milling around.

Even so, I spent that hour in bed drifting in and out of conciousness since I always dread getting up in the morning ;) I ended up getting a bit more of a late start and was the last one to breakfast. Typical.

Anyway… We got on the road and we traveled down out of Indiana and through Kentucky through Louisville. We stopped at a Fazolis where the cashier called me “baby girl” in her adorable southern accent.

Next came West Virginia. I’ve got to say, my innitial impressions ofWest Virginia went along with everything I have been told about the place. As we stopped by a gas station, I was slightly harrassed by some natives (see comment in title of entry) and much of the housing wasn’t all that great. Even so, the view was quite wonderful despite the gloomy day. We even had a chance to see quite a few waterfalls that were caused by the rainfall. (I will try to upload some of those pictures as I get them from A2/E)

After exhausting myself trying to take about a million pictures, that probably didn’t turn out too well honestly, I took about a nap for about a half hour and when I woke up, we were in Virginia. There are a couple of pictures from Virginia, but it has started to get dark out and my camera batteries have completely died. Tomorrow will be DC! I’m pretty much excited :)

Washington, D. C.

Today I began my spring break trip to DC with roommate A2, E, and E’s friend J (I’ve decided to just go with innitials for this blog to protect everyone’s privacy). We left about 1 PM and will be arriving in Indianapolis pretty soon. We’ll be staying there for the night and will hopefully arrive in DC sometime tomorrow.

We’re taking the scenic route to our state capital, so I’ll most definitely be taking some pretty mountain pictutures that I will most definitely share with you as I upload them–time willing of course, this is a vacation after all.

On the subject of photos, you’ll see the digitals uploaded as I go, but I will also be experimenting with my old 1982(?) SLR camera, so you may want to check back in next week for some higher quality (art-wise) photographs.

-K :) ;)

PS It is supposed to be decently warm in DC… Yes!!!!

If you know me at all, you know that I am an intelligent person (an academic if you will). However, you are also painfully aware that I am extremely scatterbrained–dare I say even ditzy? There is a good reason for this contrast in my personality that I don’t often publicize, as I don’t want to use it as an excuse or be judged unfairly because of it. I have Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD). I am talking about this now because I strongly believe that this is an important issue–especially in regards to how teachers react to the students who have the “disorder.” More understanding can deeply help those who identify with this subject.

This entry is terribly difficult for me to write and I am sure that it will be even more difficult to post. This is because I used to be ashamed of my ADD tendencies. Now that I have learned more about the “disorder” I have become more able to understand and respect myself. I recognize my challenges, try to accommodate for them and focus on my inherent strengths. While I do not give up and use ADD as an excuse, I now give myself a little slack now and again. Yet there is still a stigma about ADD that is deeply instilled in the general population. Even though I am viewed as an intelligent and responsible person by most people, many still view ADD solely in a negative light. In fact, usually when I tell people I get a reaction of shock and disbelief. This reaction is both positive and negative in my opinion.

There is nothing wrong with this diagnosis. It does not make me any less smart or less talented–in fact, I believe it has actually contributed to many of the successes in my life. It is also important to note that I am successful, talented and most importantly motivated to learn and succeed (not a trait that is generally thought of when the subject of ADD comes up). It is my opinion that the negative stigma of the “disorder” is often unwarranted and is almost always detrimental to the success of a student. 

Yes, it is true that students with ADD and ADHD often require special accommodations and extra planning in order to receive the support that they need to live up to their potential. It can be hard for a teacher to consistently break through and capture the attention of a dreamy student with ADD or deal with the constant disruptions associated with a fidgeting student with ADHD. However, these difficulties that the student with AD(H)D can bring into the classroom often become the teachers’ focus rather than the immense potential that can come from these students. A passage from the book Delivered from Distraction describes this better than I can

In places where most people are blind, the person with ADD can, if not see the light, at least feel the light, and she can produce answers, apparently out of the dark. It is important for others to be sensitive to this “sixth sense” many ADD people have, and to nurture it. If the environment insists on rational, linear thinking and “good” behavior all the time, then these people may never develop their intuitive style to the point where they can use it profitably. Indeed, it may atrophy, or, worse, be used in the service of revenge or criminal behavior. But with proper treatment, what at first seemed impaired may soon prove gifted (26).”

For most of my life I’ve known about my ADD and I have kept it to myself. I tried my best to avoid using the accommodations that were given to me. I struggled with various challenges such as forgetfulness, a pathetic sense of time and a tendency to blurt out my thoughts in the wrong ways, the wrong times or the wrong places. Until a few years ago I completely disregarded the talents that come from the “disorder” such as my creativity, my ability to see right into the heart of a problem, my ability to intuitively understand a concept as it is explained to me and my unique perspective (I can make connections between ideas, events and concepts that rarely occur to others).

In the public school system, my ADD would have been overlooked had it not have been for my mother. I performed well in school, got good grades and was well behaved. I enjoyed learning new things and wanted to be a “good” student. However, I was spacey and had trouble completing tasks–especially my homework. In third grade the ADD began to cause problems as that was the year I had a particularly “traditional” teacher. She read my dreamy state as lack of intelligence and my tardiness as simply misbehavior. In the end she concluded that, while I was a sweet girl, I must not be too bright. While standardized tests are definitely not the most reliable way to assess intelligence (a subject for another blog post entirely), my ITBS scores where the only thing to convince her that I had any real brain power. She even called my parents in for a special meeting to announce that I was, in fact, highly intelligent–something that my parents were already well aware of.

My parents knew who I was–an intelligent, hardworking and caring little girl. They knew that I was well behaved and there was little that I enjoyed more than learning. They got me the support that I needed to succeed in school. My mom kept on me making sure that I completed my homework, despite the angry protests and sometimes screaming matches that ensued. She also fought for some slight accommodations for me in school so that I would be able to reach my full potential. Many of the teachers resisted this. In their opinion, I got good grades, so why should I get special treatment? They didn’t realize that my grades did not reflect my true knowledge of the subject and that every night was a struggle at home to get even the smallest amount of homework done. 

As teachers, our perspective needs to change. We need to take an active role in recognizing our students’ challenges and implement the necessary accommodations. Many students with ADD or ADHD are not as lucky as I was to have an advocate working endlessly for them. They do not get the help they need and are instead labeled as troublemakers and students that are sweet but “not quite there.” Upon recent reflection, I have found that even I, a person who has dealt with these challenges all of my life, can easily fall into the trap of trying to treat/manage the negative symptoms of the disorder rather than provide the support that is needed. These misconceptions can lead to mistakes in dealing with the behavior and can ultimately be detrimental to the students’ self-esteem and future success.

When we have a student in our class with a special need we need to educate ourselves so that we can best serve our students. We don’t need to feel sorry for them, instead we need to feel empowered! We are lucky enough to make a big difference in someone’s life and help them to reach their potential. They don’t need our pity, they need our support. They need us to be confident that they can overcome their challenges and succeed so that they may one day believe it themselves.

It’s been awhile…

Hello again!

I have not been on WordPress in a long time and I’m sorry about that (although, it’s better than my old blogspot blog… I remember two back to back entries that started with “So it’s the beginning of winter term…”). A lot has actually happened with me-most of which created circumstances that were not conducive to me writing blog entries.

First of all, all I could think about after graduation was searching for a job. I realized mid-year that I had had a basic outline of my life goals planned for years-and that outline promptly ended on May 26, 2009 at the time of graduation. I have always planned to go to college and become a teacher. I chose elementary education because I love kids and could not choose one specific subject to teach (I love everything from math to music). Still, I didn’t really know where or what grade I wanted to teach. I was applying pretty much everywhere so I didn’t really want to advertise too much about my job status. Didn’t want schools to think a) she’s not getting any interviews so why should we interview her or b) she’s got a lot of interviews, we’d just be wasting our time since she’ll just take some other job.

In the end, I got offered a preschool job three hours away from home (six hours away from my college friends) that I absolutely love. I really like my new town (anything you need, but small enough that traffic is amazingly wonderful) and I was lucky enough to find a roommate on craigslist that is not only completely sane and without any murderous tendencies, but fun to be around and great to live with. She’s even introduced me to some of her friends in the area. Friends are something I’m in sorely in need of in a new town, but not something that I’m the best at acquiring (I know I’m a good friend-nice and sweet and all that-but you all probably know that I’m extremely self-conscious).

The condition of my hand as I write this entry.

The condition of my hand as I write this entry.

The other big thing that happened in the past couple of months is my little hand accident. So… I decided to eat breakfast for once in my life (honestly, I value sleep more than I do food) and even though I was being as safe possible, the bagel was stale and the knife was dull. Inevitably, the knife slipped and cut my hand instead. Fortunately, I missed the nerve and artery but I completely sliced my tendon. I’ve been in physical therapy all summer (it’s important to keep in mind that permanent nerve damage or massive blood loss would have been a much worse case scenario).

That’s pretty much all the exciting events of my summer. I hope I’ll have more time to update you with my new adult life!

-K

Kindle DX

Kindle

Kindle

I said I was going to go to sleep and I will after this post. However, I really wanted to talk about this.

So, everyone knows that I’m a hopeless techie and a hopeless shopper. I admit that I do often want things that I do not need.

I’ve always thought that the Kindle was one of the coolest things ever, but I’ve realised that no matter how much I like it, I really don’t need it. I disagree with all of those people who believe that the Kindle is silly and “will never replace books.” I would like to point out to these people that replacing books is not the point of the Kindle. Most people will still like to have a copy of a book. The purpose of a Kindle is convenience, storage and portability (for the library, not just the book).

To tell you the truth, the Kindle was made for people like me. People who can’t use the library because they just end up buying the book anyway (I never do return books on time). People who oftentimes read multiple books at the same time because they don’t always have the attention span for one thing at a time and really want to read different genres and read about different subjects right now. People who like to test out books and enjoy the convenience of instant gratification.

I could go on forever.

There are so many wonderful features to the Kindle. I could have my entire library with me–read whatever I want! I could browse a bunch of different books whenever I want; even read samples of the book before I buy it. I could browse the internet as long as I don’t want to watch videos or see sites in color*. I could look up any word with ease–something I never do when reading a book, because I just want to read the book, not search for a dictionary. I could get newspapers delivered to my device wherever I am and they wouldn’t  clutter the house. And of course there is the benefit of free books! I love free stuff…

Even better, they recently came out with a large version that is good for pdf files and easier to see. I need to remind myself that I don’t need it and that it really is too expensive. However at the same time, I know that this device would be perfect for me. I might even start reading again–something I’d rather not even admit isn’t really happening at the moment. I miss reading, but for the past six or so years, it’s taken so much effort to find books that I want to read. I think that this might help me get back into the swing of things.

I need to become an intellectual in my personal life again…

-K

*Not entirely sure about this one, but from what I’ve read it seems to be true.

Edit: Updated for typos and clarity

I cried today

This post isn’t as melodramatic as the title sounds. Today was actually a pretty good day. I spent all day with people that I love dearly and had a chance to reminisce and hang out. I even cleaned my room–pretty much at least.

The only problem is that soon college is going to end and everything is going to change. That’s not all horrible, I’m glad that I’m finally going to be able to say that I am a college graduate and will have that teaching certificate that I worked so hard for these last four years (woo-hoo!), but I loved college. I loved the fact that my only real responsibility was to learn new things, I loved my Ed classes, I loved my professors; I loved my friends, loved that I could always just turn a corner and have someone to talk to (shout out to all my wonderful roommates that have put up with my incessant talking). I’m going to miss all of this.

These thoughts all came up this morning during SAI’s Senior farewell. I’m not the type of person to cry even if I’m sad-actually, I usually cry when I’m stressed which is what I feel was the case today. Everyone else was crying and saying such wonderful things. And then when I finally got up there, I was overcome by the emotion of the day and public speaking.

Anyway, I’m kind of tired, so I should probably get to bed. I’ve got lots of essay writing to do this week!

Night!

-K

Most of the Augie SAI Seniors. I'll miss these girls!

Edit: Funny thing, apparently I update every week on Sundays… Strange, I thought I was being inconsistant. Maybe I’ll try to make this a trend or something.

Taking on Responsibility

So this weekend was a big one! The days preceding it were as well. I had plans every day — and if you know me, I don’t usually do plans. I’m too random for that. 

On Tuesday, we did a writer’s workshop lesson and the first draft of the reflection was due on Wednesday. I then had to read and review the papers of my peers and we discussed them on Thursday. Finally, I had to turn in my final draft by Friday. Great example of the writing “process” don’t you think?

 

 

Flier from the sale

Flier from the sale

On to the next subject. SAI drama. We had been planning on having a garage sale on Sunday and communication had begun to fall apart. It appeared as if it was* going to fail. People had begun to try to guilt people into volunteering and donating items and people were getting angry. I didn’t think that it was a lost cause, but everyone who was emotionally involved in the issue was just too stressed out to continue with it. It was cancelled.

 

However, I felt that we were so close to getting at least one fundraiser in and the stress had simply carried everyone off like a runaway train.  I knew that we could pull it off! So I asked the person who had organized the event (J) if she would mind if I continued with it. She said it was all mine if I wanted to deal with it.

I set off and tried to figure out what I could do to organize it and get it ready. To improve communication, I set up a few spreadsheets on google docs to try and organize volunteer times and donations. I then wrote an email to the chapter that included the links. I then realized that we would need publicity and got that set up as well. All in all it turned out quite well. I’m happy with the event and really hope that the group will continue with it next year. Finally, I’m surprised that it went so well. I’m not the type to generally take on responsibility. I’m not too organized. But I did it!

-Kristi :) ;)

P.S. I also had a choir concert on Saturday. It went very well, but it was kind of sad… It’s my last concert!

 

*Grammar question: In AP English, Mrs. Sherman enlightened me to the fact that the English language has a subjunctive tense (surprise, surprise, it’s not only the French who are tortured by “la subjunctif”). Anyway, you use the subjuctive to express doubt. In this case this means that it should be “If I were” instead of “If I was.” However, for some reason it sounds wrong to me here. Is it just my lack of practice with the tense?

Paper writing

So, I have a research paper to write this week (the first draft is due on Monday). It’s my last research paper of college! Yay!

For my paper I am supposed to study writing or the teaching of writing in some way. I had trouble coming up with a topic at first, but Mom helped me a bit and now I am going to analyze writing in the form of blogs. My professor seemed very excited about it when I talked to her and I’m enthusiastic about it as well.

So for anyone that reads this, if you are willing,  I would like you to respond to the following questions to the following answers (Comment or email. I need to get my research somehow…):

For the bloggers:

  1. Do you consider yourself a writer?
  2. Why did you start blogging? Has your purpose changed?
  3. What is your vision/purpose for your blog?
  4. How has it helped you?
  5. How has it affected your life?
  6. Is blogging easier/harder for you than other communication options?
  7. How does blogging affect your writing?
  8. Do you have a following?

For anyone who is reading this:

  1. What blogs do you read? Why did you choose them? Why do you continue find them interesting? (link if possible)
  2. What subjects do you gravitate towards?
  3. What makes a good/bad blog?
  4. Anything else you would like to mention?

-K

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